Monday, October 18, 2010

Eleven months

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As we approach the one year mark {insert statement, "she's growing way too fast"}, I have begun to think more and more about Lael's future and the little girl, young lady, and woman she will become. I try not to ponder on this too long because it's really difficult for me to imagine very far into the great unknown. When I was pregnant with her I could barely imagine giving birth to her, much less seeing her as a one month old, and much less seeing her at ELEVEN months. But here we are.

We have been specifically praying that Lael would have a soft heart. A soft heart towards her parents' guidance and discipline, and above all, a soft heart towards her Creator. As we pray for God's leading in raising our daughter, I can't help but recall this verse:

"Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it."
Proverbs 22:6

Can I be honest for a minute? Good. I'm glad. :)

There aren't many things more humbling than praying for your own child.

As I pray for Lael to possess the fruits of the spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control), it kind of comes full circle. More than anything I need Him to change me, to soften my heart, to instill in me the fruits of the spirit, and to give me wisdom so that I can be an appropriate model for my daughter.

I realize that I will fail miserably. Probably on a daily basis. That is a very blunt and honest statement, I admit, but it's true. I will mess up.
But...
and thank God for the but...

I have a Savior who has already covered me. He alone will be the one to capture her heart and bring her to Himself. He alone carries her future, and He alone will be the one to cover everything that I cannot.

And so as I pray for my precious daughter, I pray for myself. Oh, that God would work in me and through me. Oh, that He would grant me grace, and oh, that He would grant me mercy.
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1 comment:

  1. I found your blog through Megan Martin's and I am loving your musings on motherhood! It's so fresh and honest, something to look forward to one day :)

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