Most days I have felt like this.
Many days we have stayed in our pajamas all day long and I have spent a lot of time right here in this bed.
I didn't take a picture of myself...
'cause I didn't want to break your computer screen.
It's been a rough road these past couple of months. Morning sickness as "they" like to call it (many of us know the real truth though... this sickness has no time frame.) is like a bad dream you would like to forget. One that I tried to forget after I went through it the first time. There were days when I thought to myself,
"How would I do this if I had a child?" Ha.
Well, I did it. It was hard. The Lord sustained me though and I walked through it one baby step at a time.
We ate out a lot. We got take-out a lot. But that's just the way it had to be. Not ideal, but necessary to get through a temporary stage of pregnancy. 'Cause if I cook it, I can not eat it.
I'm starting to 'round the bend. These days I'm feeling the worst in the evenings, but I can tell that it's getting better.
During my times of rest I have often brain stormed ways that I could make myself feel better. 'Cause I'll be honest, I hate nausea, and I would rather have a head cold than feel like I'm going to throw up at any moment.
I quickly realized that you must eat to get through the sickness, but the thing about it is that eating is the last thing you want to do. What a conundrum.
Sooooo, one ridiculous invention I have come up with is an IV/feeding tube sort of thing that just pumps all of your food and nutrition into your body so that you don't actually have to put it in your mouth and swallow it. A constant stream of food so that your stomach doesn't get empty and you don't in turn feel sick. Don't you think that's genius?? :)
I guess this is just proof of how desperately far my mind wanders in moments of, well, desperation.
I couldn't be more thankful for such a sweet little girl who has been easy on her momma during this time. I'm so grateful for her wonderful sleeping habits, so that I could get the rest I have needed.
She keeps going, and I've had to keep going, too. It's been good for me. Hard sometimes, but a good lesson in perseverance. I'm going to need it in about 6 months from now!